We’re doing something a little different today. Gina Easley, our staff photographer, has been providing the images for most Full Grown People essays for years (some damn amazing ones, I might add), and now she’s started writing flash essays of her own. This is one from one of her series. —ed.
Photo and Writing by Gina Easley
He’s been gone for several days, and she doesn’t know where. This isn’t the first time. Sometimes he’s just hiding out nearby, keeping to himself. It’s nothing personal. Other times he ventures further away, and she finds him only through her own persistence or the kindness of strangers. She doesn’t know if this is one of those “further away” times. As always happens in these moments of uncertainty, she is struck with a deep grief at the thought of living without him.
Fifty years they’ve been together. Still, she doesn’t know if he loves her; she only knows that she loves him.
Fifty years, and still he insists on sleeping under the bed.
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She chuckles at this thought: her longest lasting relationship has been with a desert tortoise.
Back when her now-middle-aged children were babies, a friend gave Henry to Kathleen. Henry was a rescue tortoise in need of a home, and Kathleen took him in. He has lived with her in ten different homes, been with her through two marriages and three children, and has even seen her grandchildren grow into adulthood. She doesn’t know how old he is. A desert tortoise’s lifespan is long. He could quite possibly outlive her.
She’s never known what he is thinking or feeling, but she does know that he has preferences, and that he is willful. His determination is obvious and strong and was proven recently when she put up a board to prevent him from entering the garage, one of his favorite places. She watched as he banged himself repeatedly into the board in an attempt to break through. She admires his determination. But maybe that is why he’s gone missing again … perhaps he’s unhappy about the board.
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She steps into the back yard and sees him, basking in the sun. He’s back. She goes to him, touches his head. She’s reminded of the feeling of calm that overtakes her when she looks out at the ocean, and how curious it is that he has the same effect on her. Along with gratitude and relief at his return, she is flooded with love: a no-strings, no-expectations kind of love. For fifty years she has cared for him, seen to all his needs. And for fifty years he has reminded her daily that love needs no reason, that love itself is enough.
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GINA EASLEY is a photographer based in Minneapolis. Aside from her role as staff photographer for Full Grown People, she enjoys photographing animals and the people who love them. This is her first published essay.
Beautiful essay!
Thank you!!
I love this piece. Thank you so much for the photograph and the words.
Thank you Patrice!
Oh, what a wonderful FGP to start my day! I have wondered so much about Gina Easley, marveling that one human being could possibly have snapped so many beautiful pictures in one lifetime. And to now hear her writing! What a lovely essay. It moved me to tears. Just beautiful.
Well Sue, your comment moved ME to tears, so we are even 🙂 Thank you so much for your kind words!
Hello ,
I saw your tweet about animals and thought I will check your website. I like it!
I love pets. I have two beautiful thai cats called Tammy(female) and Yommo(male). Yommo is 1 year older than Tommy. He acts like a bigger brother for her. 🙂
I have even created an Instagram account for them ( https://www.instagram.com/tayo_home/ ) and probably soon they will have more followers than me (kinda funny).
I have subscribed to your newsletter. 🙂
Keep up the good work on your blog.
Regards
Wiki
Thanks so much, and give Tammy and Yommo a scratch behind the ears for me 🙂
Gina shows her perception and intuition about love in this essay. I am honored to have been a part of Gina’s journey on the planet.
I love you Kathleen! I can’t wait to see you and Henry and the rest of the family again <3
Wonderful! Looking forward to reading, as well as seeing, more of your work.
Thanks Susan!
I so loved this! Have you read “Timothy; Or Notes of an Abject Reptile,” by Verlyn Klinkenborg? I think you’d love it.
Thanks Linda! I haven’t read that but I just looked it up and it’s definitely going on my reading list!
I treasure and admire Gina Easely’s piece. This is the BEST of writing, a view of life and existence matured like rare wine. I’m 76, and will continue to write. And savor, slowly & again, pieces like this. Book coming out? – Like touching the turtle.
Laulette, thank you for your kind words!
This piece is just beautiful. And so wise.
Thanks Caroline! Kathleen is one of the wisest people I know.
Very nice Gina. Write more please.
Thanks Bruce, I hope to!
Beautiful essay, Gina! And thank you so much for all your beautiful pictures over the years. Hope to read more from you!
Thanks so much Sarah!
Uncompromised by rationality, we can trust an animal’s response to us. A truth charmingly described.
Congratulations on your first published essay, Gina! And wow, what a lovely piece.
Simple and sweet and done oh-so-beautifully, Gina. I hope you’ll write even more for FGP! Love your photos, too!